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First you must decide,
then you must follow through,
i believe that's the only way you can get anything accomplished.

But if we can attribute events to destiny,
then why do we struggle to live??

so you're saying that it's pointless to wish or hope for anything ?

what are we to do when we find out that our wishes will not be fufilled ?

I don't know about such kind of things.
I don't even know about myself.

Just who decided all of it.
just what did they decide.

It couldn't be helped.
But was it really by choice ?

did you really choose it yourself ?

Perhaps what we wished for was actually beyond the path we weren't able to choose?

A Path that you did not choose might as well have never existed.

we cannot go back, no matter how much we look back.

We cannot change anything.

All we can do is to keep moving forward into the unforeseeable future.

Some time other than now.
Some place other than here.

They compete, envy, hate, consume each other.

Are you saying there's no salvation ?

what is salvation ?

is it for all of your hopes and wishes to come true?

is it for your wishes to be granted. to turn back time ?

Then can you say for sure that you won't make a mistake the next time?

Because you yourself know that best.


NOTE: not my writing. just some words and phrases i felt speak for me right now.

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