Tis would be nice if love ruled the world.
Most of the time...
I have waited patiently for you to show me your vulnerability so that I could be your pillar when the storm comes. But you think and act as if your show of strength is always what i need, your tears don't trickle long enough for me to realise and reciprocrate the strength that you need.
I loved it when you used to come and sit beside me and just say nothing when I feel down or just not doing anything at all. You don't have to always speak as your prescence besides me gives me strength and comfort to carry on. Thank you for being with me.
I detest myself in not having the eyes to see what makes you laugh and the ability to bring those flames back to the days when you were smiling 90% of the day. I appreciate every little single thing that you've tried so hard to do when i was down. But now I regret those times when I could have made you laugh. Please forgive me.
I never ever gave a second thought on the way you told me about myself as I was too selfish and blind to see. When I see you looking away from the mirror, i often wondered but dismissed it as a passing fancy that the mirror holds the vast picture of your sadness. Tis' I have failed you.
The light and the lifeline you provided for me guided me through my distressing times even though you've used up the light and the way out was so tattered and worn. Many a times I wanted to find a way out but you were always there for me. I bought new lights for you but then I could't find you anymore.
I'm glad that you were there when I dreamt I've lost you in my nightmares. Now I've really lost you, the nightmares became reality. These nights where I toss and turn like a ship in a storm, sleep don't come easy now but I try to remember those memories that you were there and sleep comes unwillingly and slowly.
I thought I was confined to the very ground I walked on until I saw the wings of mine which was reflected in your eyes we gaze at each other. I realized that for every feather in my wings, you have walked and crawled so that I could fly. I wanna wrap you in my arms and fly away with you. All I grasped was just a vague memory of you.
My hopes for the best for you seems to crumble like the rocks weather beaten by the rain, wind and sun. The future was not as lovely as we thought it would have been. Life's harshness completely diminished your dreams. We were on a verge of a breakthrough... Reality did not like it.
I knew your heart was missing a few pieces from scars of battles and travelling. I tried patching it up by using pieces of mine but little did i know that mine was missing a few yet I still wanted to share it so you could have a whole heart. At times, the trials came to me...I broke. I don't see you anymore.
And sometimes...
I think it was inevitable. I counted the days never knowing when it would happen. I saw the cracks on the string that barely held us in the torrents of flowing rivers. I tried to replace the string before it broke. I did not manage.
I'm tired. I want to go to sleep.
Good night.
Most of the time...
I have waited patiently for you to show me your vulnerability so that I could be your pillar when the storm comes. But you think and act as if your show of strength is always what i need, your tears don't trickle long enough for me to realise and reciprocrate the strength that you need.
I loved it when you used to come and sit beside me and just say nothing when I feel down or just not doing anything at all. You don't have to always speak as your prescence besides me gives me strength and comfort to carry on. Thank you for being with me.
I detest myself in not having the eyes to see what makes you laugh and the ability to bring those flames back to the days when you were smiling 90% of the day. I appreciate every little single thing that you've tried so hard to do when i was down. But now I regret those times when I could have made you laugh. Please forgive me.
I never ever gave a second thought on the way you told me about myself as I was too selfish and blind to see. When I see you looking away from the mirror, i often wondered but dismissed it as a passing fancy that the mirror holds the vast picture of your sadness. Tis' I have failed you.
The light and the lifeline you provided for me guided me through my distressing times even though you've used up the light and the way out was so tattered and worn. Many a times I wanted to find a way out but you were always there for me. I bought new lights for you but then I could't find you anymore.
I'm glad that you were there when I dreamt I've lost you in my nightmares. Now I've really lost you, the nightmares became reality. These nights where I toss and turn like a ship in a storm, sleep don't come easy now but I try to remember those memories that you were there and sleep comes unwillingly and slowly.
I thought I was confined to the very ground I walked on until I saw the wings of mine which was reflected in your eyes we gaze at each other. I realized that for every feather in my wings, you have walked and crawled so that I could fly. I wanna wrap you in my arms and fly away with you. All I grasped was just a vague memory of you.
My hopes for the best for you seems to crumble like the rocks weather beaten by the rain, wind and sun. The future was not as lovely as we thought it would have been. Life's harshness completely diminished your dreams. We were on a verge of a breakthrough... Reality did not like it.
I knew your heart was missing a few pieces from scars of battles and travelling. I tried patching it up by using pieces of mine but little did i know that mine was missing a few yet I still wanted to share it so you could have a whole heart. At times, the trials came to me...I broke. I don't see you anymore.
And sometimes...
I think it was inevitable. I counted the days never knowing when it would happen. I saw the cracks on the string that barely held us in the torrents of flowing rivers. I tried to replace the string before it broke. I did not manage.
I'm tired. I want to go to sleep.
Good night.
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